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Monday, April 9th, 2007
10:52 am - I'm back....for now...
I've been gone for quite some time. Well, I've only been over at myspace, but I'm sure many have deleted me due to my lack of posting and whatnot here.

For those of you still reading this, how are you? I've missed you people. Most of my updates are still at my myspace page.

(21 Discouraged Ones | Follow the Hollow)

Saturday, August 5th, 2006
1:01 am - nothing to see here....
just a new pic

How the hell is everybody?

(11 Discouraged Ones | Follow the Hollow)

Monday, July 24th, 2006
1:36 am - "all the drugs in this world won't save her from herself..."
So, I haven't updated here in ages. I don't even know who has or has not delted me, but I'll update here for shits and giggles since myspace is like high school on crack.

I never really mentioned much about the whole Karly situation here, but it's over now. Well, it has been for a couple months. I just don't understand how someone can go from "I love you and I want to spend the rest of my life with you" to "I cheated on you with your best friend" two weeks later; and no, Trent didn't fuck her. The day he supposedly drove all the way to Nashville to fuck her was a day I spent with Devin and Trent in Louisville. Nice loophole there, sweetheart! Hell, Devin had been her best friend sicne childhood and now Devin refuses to speak to Karly cause she's claiming she fucked her man. Fuck that, and fuck her. I spent nearly $300 on her for her birthday and she didn't even show up. Now I wonder how many guys she's been with in Nashville if she'd make up a story about my best friend; makes you wonder what she's been keeping from me. But alas, I'm sure it had something to do with the cocaine and all. I mean yeah, it was sweet hearing her say she was quiting because she didn't need the drugs cause she had me, but when you're in love, you'll believe anything. To quote Marilyn Manson, "You can't find the truth; you just pick the lie you like the best."

Anyway, that whole situation had me really fucking down and yeah, I know some of you that are reading this are probably thinking, "Oh, here we go again!" Seriously though, ask yourself how you would feel if someone claimed they loved you and wanted to spend the rest of their life with you and pulled the same shit. I stopped eating as much. I weighed in at 128lbs just five minutes ago and I'm at 138 WITH my 18 inch boots on. I've gone from a 32 inch waist to a 28 inch waist. Even though I'm over eveything now (yes, I truly am) I still don't eat much. It's not out of the ordinary for me to go two days without food, and today all I had was a small packet of tuna fish. Oh, and NO, I haven't been doing any drugs. On the alcohol spectrum, I had one beer two nights ago at three in the morning when I was playing pool with Brent, Sunshine and Cat.

Other than that, I will be seeing Bleeding Through AGAIN tomorrow! That's three times this year; four times since this time last year; and seven times overall. Oh, and yes, they are THAT FUCKING GOOD live.

(14 Discouraged Ones | Follow the Hollow)

Sunday, June 25th, 2006
10:22 pm
The feeling of betrayal cuts so deep.....


I wish I could wake up inside a grave;
locked in a casket, covered in Earth;
and know that my final moment has arrived.
Suffocating inside this tomb
yet no longer suffocating for you...
I would simply await the asphyxiation
with no attempt to escape my tomb.
Finally reaching a state of euphoria,
as the death that I've so longed for
holds me firmly within its grasp.....
-Brian Shuffett

current mood: discontent

(2 Discouraged Ones | Follow the Hollow)

Thursday, June 22nd, 2006
11:16 pm
I've posted a lot of these over at myspace, but I haven't shown any new pics here for quite some time, so.....

picturesCollapse )

(8 Discouraged Ones | Follow the Hollow)

Monday, June 12th, 2006
11:02 pm

Oct. 20 - The Loft, Poughkeepsie NY
Oct. 21 - Mark's Place, Bedford NH
Oct. 22 - BB Kings Blues Club, New York NY
Oct. 23 - Medley, Montreal QU
Oct. 24 - L'Imperial, Quebec City QU
Oct. 25 - Opera House, Toronto ON
Oct. 26 - Peabody's, Cleveland OH
Oct. 27 - IRock, Detroit MI
Oct. 28 - Pearl Room, Mokena IL
Oct. 29 - Star Central, Columbia Heights MN
Oct. 31 - Lliff Park Saloon, Aurora CO
Nov. 02 - Studio Seven, Seattle WA
Nov. 03 - Rock N Roll Pizza, Portland OR
Nov. 04 - Pound @ Pier 96, San Francisco CA
Nov. 06 - House of Blues, Anaheim CA
Nov. 11 - White Rabbit, San Antonio TX
Nov. 17 - Jaxx, Springfield VA

More dates TBA!!!

(9 Discouraged Ones | Follow the Hollow)

Tuesday, June 6th, 2006
3:21 pm
So, um, how are you all spending 6/6/06? I'm seeing Vader, Kataklysm, Detruction and Graveworm.

Karly's birthday is in six days. ;.) I can't wait to see her.

(15 Discouraged Ones | Follow the Hollow)

Saturday, May 27th, 2006
10:09 am
I haven't logged on here in ages, but I thought I'd make some update to at least say I'm still alive. Things are going absotively posilutely fantasmic with Karly. I'm one happy camper and Tuesday will be two months. She and Devin are actually moving to Lexington to come to U.K. so now I will be able to see Karly a lot more. ;.) Ah, and the things she says to me.....hehehehehe!

Dear Brett Ratner,

1)Work on your special effects
2)Juggernaut is NOT a mutant.
3)Marrow is NOT a guy.
4)Action scenes shouldn't be blurry and choppy so as to not be able to tell what's going on.


(7 Discouraged Ones | Follow the Hollow)

Wednesday, April 19th, 2006
10:13 pm
Thanks to Theresa, I am listening to a black metal band covering Madonna's "Frozen." Ahahahahaha! It's actually quite good.

(11 Discouraged Ones | Follow the Hollow)

Monday, April 17th, 2006
10:35 pm - Repost this shit....I hope this guy gets what's coming to him
Beyond fucked up. This guy needs to motherfucking dieCollapse )

(19 Discouraged Ones | Follow the Hollow)

9:25 am


current mood: amused

(3 Discouraged Ones | Follow the Hollow)

Sunday, April 16th, 2006
10:20 pm
I don't even know what to say. 13 is my favorite number, but when you're patiently waiting for 13 days to pass, that number seems like a bit of evil.

Lucky Number Slevin was one hell of a good movie. It started out slow, but DAMN! I will be seeing that again.


How the Hell is everybody doing?

(3 Discouraged Ones | Follow the Hollow)

Wednesday, April 12th, 2006
6:25 pm
So, things have been set in motion. Karly will be back on April 28th. I'm picking her up on the 29th after work and she will be here until May 2nd. Tis quite nice, if you ask me.

We've pretty much spent all day talking on AIM. ;.)

current mood: chipper

(2 Discouraged Ones | Follow the Hollow)

Tuesday, April 11th, 2006
8:36 am
Alright, you all should know how much I love My Dying Bride, Paradise Lost and Anathema. Well, I'm sorry for those of you who don't agree, but Saturnus puts them all to shame. I mean, I love those bands, but I've never heard doom metal played so beautiful outside of Shape of Despair and Swallow the Sun.

(9 Discouraged Ones | Follow the Hollow)

Monday, April 10th, 2006
9:28 pm
How the Hell is everybody doing? I've never been better! Yet, things will improve even more once Karly returns. ;.)

The new Saturnus album is amazing!

current mood: chipper

(3 Discouraged Ones | Follow the Hollow)

Sunday, April 9th, 2006
7:52 pm
It seems that Karly is going to stay in Gatlinburg for a couple more weeks with her grandmother. They say good things come to those who wait. I'll wait forever.

current mood: tired

(2 Discouraged Ones | Follow the Hollow)

Saturday, April 8th, 2006
9:41 am
It's a nice change to finally have hope.....

current mood: indescribable

(5 Discouraged Ones | Follow the Hollow)

Thursday, April 6th, 2006
3:18 pm - "Mommy, can I go out and kill tonight?"


(2 Discouraged Ones | Follow the Hollow)

Wednesday, April 5th, 2006
10:13 pm - New pic.....
This was taken in Devin's room about a week and-a-half ago.

Any color you like as long as it's blackCollapse )

(9 Discouraged Ones | Follow the Hollow)

Friday, March 31st, 2006
1:45 am - Life has taken one Hell of a good turn for me.
I am now dating a stunning goddess by the name of Karly. I met her through Devin, whom I met through Trent. So, I owe them both equal praise. It is strange how I've not stopped smiling since we made this decision. Well, not strange, but it is the fact that I usually do not find myself so happy. I usually am not so happy, but now I have reason to be. In reality, I'm in a state of euphoria as this lady is perfect for me, and she tells me that I am perfect for her. The words she speaks to me make me glad that I didn't end my life like I had felt like doing previously.

When she returns from her trip on the 12th, I am driving down to Louisville to pick her up and we're coming back here to Lexington. We may do something down there before venturing back here, but I'll ask off for the 12th and the 13th so we can spend some time together. Like I told her, people are going to envy us. In her reply to my email, she told me this - "I really do want to be with you and I really really miss talking to you. Please hang out with me when I get back. There is nothing in the world that I want more than to be in your arms. I know that once I am I will just feel so safe and secure and at home." I have never felt so invincible. Nothing can ruin my mood. I have the most beautiful lady in the world to walk hand in hand through the darkness with. If you see her, beware! Her light will blind you. Her halo illuminates the sky. God himself envies her wings.

current mood: happy

(21 Discouraged Ones | Follow the Hollow)

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